She rears her ugly head!

Good morning those in bloggersphere...
I am getting married in less than a month and for most of the time things are going smoothly, for other parts of the time they are not.
Now I am usually a cheery person who can normally deal with small things fairly good.
I have watched movies and seen Brides to be become complete emotional crazed women and turn into the dreaded Bridezilla!! Haha, not me I would laugh at that TV screen, *coff*
Well it turns out that she also lives in me, the insane, impatient, anxious Bridezilla!
I am going to the City today to get some gold ribbon for my cake and bouquets and to find the perfect shoes, if I don't find them I am sure I will come home feeling defeated and cry.
Is this rational? NOOOO Not at all!!!!
My most amazing Fiance said to be the other day that I wasn't a Bridezilla, but that it was normal for all these emotions to come up because it is a huge wonderful change that is happening.
Siiiigh I am so blessed to have him. And yet even when I am sitting here feeling so blessed to have him I know it only takes a bump in my perfect road map to make me snappy instead of happy. I really really need God's strength right now, so I am not so crazy haha.

My mind has been so consumed that the other night I had a dream about this Gold ribbon, and I searched and I searched for the perfect one, did I find it?? Nope!
I woke up feeling frustrated because something in my dreams couldn't even go right!
It takes me forever to fall asleep as I have wedding plans going through my head, I wake up early because my mind is too full to stay asleep.
So I am sleep deprived, fully busy, mind full of things to do and emotional.
No wonder Bridezilla decided to show up ;-p